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Why Dumbledore being gay does and does not matter

There were so many emotions running through me when I first read this the other day that I can’t remember what came first. I was surprised and felt a little consternation (er, wait, what?) at first, but what lasted was delight. This explains so much!

I guess it occurred to me that there would be people who would use this as further ammunition against J.K. Rowling and the books, but it wasn’t until after I read some of the comments at cnn.com like my friend suggested in his blog about the subject that I realized how upset people were.

Now, I’m not going to respond to the people who would be shocked and morally offended by any character, especially in a children’s book, who is gay. There is nothing I can say that will affect how they feel about the subject. I am sorry if this will prevent some parents from letting their children or future children read the books, but I hope those who truly want or need to read Harry Potter will find him somehow.

There were a couple other reactions as well. One was why does it matter? Another was variations on the theme: if it was really important, she would have/should have included it in the story and is therefore only revealing it now to make money/stir up controversy.

As an aspiring writer I tend to look at things I’ve read differently, so I do have an answer to these points. This is of course, just my opinion and I have no window into Rowling’s mind and I could be completely off base, but this is how I see it. And also it’s been several months now since I read the 7th book for the second time so it has faded a bit from my memory.

  1. It DOES matter. Why? Because it is part of who, as a character, Dumbledore is. I do not for one second believe that Rowling did not have this planned out from the beginning (or at least from whenever she knew that Dumbledore and Grindelwald had been friends at one point). It’s not something she has tacked onto the end now just because she could. I’m sure as an integral part of who Dumbledore is, this facet of his life was filtered through everything she wrote about him. It just wasn’t necessarily visible to us (or Harry–more on that later). The fact that he was gay and in love Grindelwald explains so much about what Harry and we all found out about him in the Deathly Hallows. I have to admit that although I still respected and admired Dumbledore, I was disappointed in his actions as a younger man. I was sympathetic, but I, like a lot of readers, I think, had put Dumbledore on a pedastal and I wanted him to live up to my expectations, even after he was dead. I was disappointed that he could speculate on the Hallows and the power they could bring with this foreign wizard, disappointed that he let it go so far that it would cause his sister’s death and disappointed that when he saw Grindelwald amassing power, it took Dumbledore so long to confront him. Now we do know. He had fallen in love that summer, with all the passion and abandon of the young. I don’t know why it relieves me so much, but it does. I guess it’s because I didn’t find Dumbledore’s actions understandable before (despite his explanations to Harry–or is that Harry’s subconscious projection of what Dumbledore would have said in that weird little afterlife?). Anyway, now I do find everything understandable and therefore less disappointing. I guess I’m a romantic. 🙂
  2. Despite the importance to Dumbledore’s character and all the revelations about him and the Elder Wand in the 7th book, it DOES NOT matter. Why? Because it doesn’t matter to Harry and it’s Harry’s story. There is a reason why the books are called Harry Potter and the such and such. Except for a very few exceptions, the books are told from Harry Potter’s perspective. I think by the time Rowling sat down to write the first book, she knew the whole background of all her major characters and quite a few of her more minor ones. Some of that is integral to those characters. We all have things that happen to us, people that we meet, that are of primary importance to who we are today. But if we are a minor character in someone else’s story, no matter how important that event/person is to us, doesn’t mean it matters in the story. This is one of those times. For the majority of the series, no matter how Dumbledore was shaped by his sexuality and how it related to “his great tragedy” in terms of Grindelwald, it didn’t matter to the STORY, HARRY’S STORY, to what was happening at the time. Did it matter that Dumbledore was gay when Harry first came to school and then learned all about Voldemort and the Sorcerer’s Stone? Did it matter when the Chamber was opened? Did it matter when Dumbledore and Voldemort battled in Order of the Phoenix or when he was mentoring Harry in Half-Blood Prince? No. It didn’t. It didn’t have any bearing on the story at all. Harry didn’t even wonder about Dumbledore’s family until forced to in the 7th book.

To sum up. I suppose if Rowling had managed to give Harry away to find out along with everything else in the 7th book, she could have done that. It would have been nice to know when learning about Grindelwald and his sister and everything. But I think it would have been a difficult thing for Harry to find out and really, compared to everything else that was going on, very unimportant.

Anyway, that’s my opinion.

World Fantasy, Here I Come

After a couple months of dithering, I have finally officially registered and paid up to attend this year’s World Fantasy Convention in Saratoga Springs, New York. As this convention is more geared toward professionals than newbies, I doubt there will be much on how to get published or changes to meet agents in pitch sessions or anything like that. Instead there will be panels on different literary topics, lots of published authors and publishing professionals around and books galore. At least that’s what I think it will be like. The theme this year is ghosts, which isn’t that relevant to my work, but perhaps I will be inspired to write something. I’ve gotten ideas from stranger places. 🙂 I’m hoping to enjoy the atmosphere, meet interesting people and talk about books.

I’m still waiting to hear that my hotel reservations will be confirmed, but hopefully they will call me soon. I put my credit card number in and everything, so if I don’t get word soon, I’ll have to call them, which will not make me happy.

I signed up to go to the awards banquet and have added almost all the nominees to my booksfree.com list. It will take some work to read them all before the convention, but I’d like to at least be informed about one category. I’ll probably have to buy some of them, since booksfree isn’t really good at sending me books in the exact order I want to read them. But that’s ok. They’ve all been nominated, so they should be really good, right? I might do a post on my pre-read impressions and then maybe follow-up with post read impressions. Definitely be on the look-out for a post or two about my experiences at the WFC.

Simple Pleasures

I’ve been thinking recently about the simple pleasures of life. Do we take a moment to stop and really enjoy them? Isn’t it these moments that add richness and texture to our lives?

Here are some of mine:

  1. Caramel Apple Cider (yes, with whip cream and toppings) from the Seattle’s Best Cafe in my local Borders. This treat is pure heaven! I find myself craving it even though it’s summer. Every time I had one, I took my first sip and sighed with pleasure. I would go and write just to give myself an excuse to have one. 🙂
  2. The song “Flying” from the soundtrack of the movie Peter Pan that came out a few years ago with Jason Issacs (a.k.a. Lucias Malfoy) as Captain Hook. This song is AWESOME! I feel like I’m flying whenever I hear it and it never fails to make me smile. The whole soundtrack is great, but this is my favorite song. And the movie is great too. Check it out, if you haven’t seen it. Jeremy Sumpter (Peter Pan) is a heart-throb waiting to happen. His mischievous smile was perfect for the boy who never grows up.
  3. The scent of the crab apple tree in front of my house when it’s in full bloom. The tree always blooms around my birthday, so it’s like an extra present. 🙂 This year it only lasted a few days and I didn’t get a chance to enjoy it as much as I wanted. I’ll do better next year.

Those are some of my simple pleasures. What are some of yours? Enjoy!

Stuck in the Apple Store

Literally. I’m so bored here! And yes, I know, it’s been AGES since I updates. So sue me.

So, my computer has decided to be uncooporative again and I’m stuck here at the Apple Store waiting for my turn to talk to a “Genius.” I have to say, they better be able to fix it. I’ve already had to come here 3 or 4 times since I got the thing, so my patience is wearing thin. Aren’t macs supposed to be better than that? My applecare protection plan is almost up too. So at least it didn’t decide to crap out on me after that. But this is bad timing. I’m going to the beach next week for a week. And I was planning on writing and working on my web page.

{Oh, by the way, I have a Web page now! It’s at www.gaylegillespie.com}

Yes, I’ll spend a lot of time reading and laying out on the beach and probably watching tv, but I still NEED my computer. I can’t survive without it. Luckily it did let me get in long enough to backup some of my files, so I’m not going completely crazy, but it’s still worrisome.

Anyway, it’s finally my turn. Hopefully they can fix it!

I had New Year’s resolutions…

but I’m not sure what happened to them. Ok, so I’m still on my diet, but this is only my second week. It’s too soon to tell if I’ll really be able to stick with it. But I paid for 3 months of the Weight Watchers online service, so hopefully… And anyway, I like putting in the numbers.

My other one (and more important than losing weight) was to finish my book. Have I done anything about that? No.

My third one was to keep saving money so I can move out.

And I also want to do theater again, but I don’t think that one was ever official. I think I just assumed that would happen on its own. But I had the chance to audition for a show this week and I didn’t. The fact that I didn’t really have a song ready is not a good enough excuse, because I SHOULD have had a song ready.

Graduating has not given me the satisfaction I thought it would. It was my focus, especially this final semester after my boyfriend and I broke up. Now, I feel like I have no focus.

I should have focus. I want to finish my book and send it out to agents, right? Yes, but once I do they might reject it. I’ve been trying to do this (get published) for awhile now and after submitting my first book, I thought I developed a thicker skin. I’m afraid now that this is not the case. This is my most original and best written (at least it will be after I edit it) book. If this doesn’t get accepted, I don’t know that anything I write ever will.

But I won’t know until I try right? Can’t live life without taking risks, without opening myself up for being hurt. That wouldn’t be living. I have to remember that.